backwaterbelle | eudio

I would agree. He puts it to good use too.

I'm used to being able to borrow supplemental powers real easy back home, but it's trickier here.

it's going to rub off on me.

did they taper down your ability to do that? i'm guessing that's it, right?

Do you worry about that sometimes?

Yes and no. When I came here, I had two of my friends’ powers. Those were dampened, but they were also temporary. My mutation remains unaffected.

in a sense. i worry it'll be tough going back to my life the way it was. not that i won't be able to or that i'll be less good at what i do, just that i'll know what it's like to... have time to do other things.

can you just take powers here still then? as per city power caps?

Then you cherish the hell out of the good memories and carpe diem while you can, especially since death could be right around the corner.

Yeah, but it's like borrowing a library book on a time limit. I used to not have control, couldn't touch nobody skin to skin without maybe killing or putting them in a coma. First boy I kissed experienced both, and it messed me up real bad. Kept my mutation from evolving properly. Took a real strong telepath to sort things out eventually, and that won't too long ago neither. That's the short, simplified version too.

yeah. i'm really trying. even if death won't get me just yet.

i'm sorry. not having control at all sounds awful. it doesn't sound easy, having any sort of power. magic or mutation, whatever you want to call it. it's not all perks.

I know sugar. And I'm glad because I enjoy spending time with you. I should really cook the pair of you dinner some night.

Even now I still get bitter about not having control and the pain and suffering that came from that, but I try to be grateful and remember that I grew from surviving these terrible things. That's what they tell me to tell myself at least.

Mutation. It's caused by the x-gene. And no, it's definitely not all perks. Or any, at times.

that sounds nice, rogue. i think magnus would like that too.

it's over now, right? so you can tell yourself that and know you can be better in the future.

i used to be really blind to how hurtful it was to think someone was a certain way because of things like that.

Y'all got a preference with food? Or rather, any aversion to spicy or Southern cooking? I already know y'all like pies.

Yeah. It's over. I just got here for certain.

People can change. I used to be more of a villain, but I got a rare second chance and took it.

no, you can go wild.

...really? a villain?

I was angry and my adoptive mother, one of them, used that and my powers to her advantage. It's more complicated than that, but I'd rather not get into it.

i don't know if that counts as being a villain. you were made to be one, not giving a choice to be one.

Depends on the definition. I did bad things and believed myself correct in my actions, but later I realized I was wrong and that they were mistakes. I didn't regret them at the time, but now I do. I had a choice. I accepted the consequences.

i really admire that, actually. it's hard when you're taught something your whole life and you don't think twice about it. i've done things i thought were right at the time but that i now know aren't. accepting the consequences of your actions... it's important.

Thanks sugar, though I don't feel right expressing thanks for doing such things. I should have known better, felt that gut instinct more and listened to that voice. My temper gets the best of me sometimes, more since Charles' death. Nearly did someone in here because ah got triggered by something they did. A few things actually.

It's important, but not everyone's capable of doing it for one reason or another. At least we can now. Better late than never.

yeah, i know. i think in the end you have to trust yourself above what you're being told to trust, but it's hard to shake being taught the opposite all your life.

i think this place is good, for that. you can work on it and take the time you need.

Gathering more life experiences and keeping an open mind helps foster more independence I think. We’re all impressionable when we’re young and/or insecure. It’s hard to break bad habits.

We can, yes. Do you ever think about the people we’ve left behind to be here?

but it's possible. i intend to make it so, at least.

i'm lucky that most of them are here, at the moment. i have a little brother, though. max. i think about him a lot. part of why i'm here is for him, so that helps.

You and me both. That's what counts.

That is lucky. You're here to help your brother? We've already talked about my situation, which hasn't really changed.

sort of. i'm restoring my family's honor. that's what my wedding was meant to do, in a way. it was what my parents wanted but they're the ones who ruined the name in the first place by siding with a genocidal maniac years ago. something they'd never bothered to mention.

i want to restore it for max and isabelle, so they can still have a good future, without what my parents did getting in their way, without having to give anything up themselves. they shouldn't have to face the consequences of someone else's actions. it shouldn't be on us to sacrifice our lives to make up for what they did.

I'm sorry Alec. That's one hell of a burden that none of y'all should have to carry. Everyone should be able to live their own lives, you and your siblings included.

You're giving them the chance at least. We don't know how our lives will play out given our occupations, but we can certainly do our best. You're a good brother, and from what I hear with great frequency, a lovely boyfriend.

yeah. i just want them to have a chance. it isn't fair that they wouldn't because of something our parents did.

thanks, rogue. for listening and saying that.

We both know life ain’t fair, else we wouldn’t be here.

You don’t need to thank me. I consider you a friend Alec.

this is my attempt at making it a bit more fair, i guess.

i consider you a friend too, rogue. [ he doesn't have to say he doesn't have a lot of friends, right? he's pretty sure that's obvious. ]

I'll drink to that. So to speak. I ain't drinking at the moment.

Does this mean I get hugging privileges? [This she knows, and she's both teasing and being a bit serious by asking permission.]

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